Tuesday, 12 March 2013

LFT and the Power of Prayer

I know I have written on anger before, but as one who was somewhat detached from the feelings that anger can manifest.  Who am I kidding?

This is an era when many of us are defined by some letters of the alphabet, i.e. ADD, ADHD, OC, etc. I was comforted when I learned that I too had a clinical reason for my more recent unChristlike behaviors.  I suffer from LFT, better known as low frustration tolerance. 

I need only to look back at my behavior over the past several months to realize that, like it or not, there are times when I worship my need for calm, my need for routine, my tranquility, my desire that things go smoothly, and my dislike for chaos. I define chaos as anything that doesn’t go according the “kingdom of me.”

Not that misery loves company but I am of the opinion that many, many people suffer from this malady.  Though I prefer LFT, it is better known in other circles as self-centeredness.

The reality is that I have a worship problem.  Intellectually I want to worship God and God alone but my heart is in obvious rebellion.  When my routine gets disrupted I get frustrated; when I expect things to go one way and they go another I get irritated; when someone behaves in a way that challenges my world view I get agitated.  When I allow external events to control my sinful human nature such that I behave in an unChristlike way, I have put something or someone else on the throne of my life.

If you Google “cause of anger” you will find a plethora of possible causes listed.  What you probably won’t find is “self-centeredness”.  The book of James, chapter four, verses one and two suggests that the reason we quarrel and fight (i.e. display anger) is because we don’t have our desires met.

There is something inside of me that bristles at the thought that I would worship anything or anyone but God.  However when I let external circumstances control my behavior that is just what I am doing.

Faced with the prospects of entering a time of chaos, my wife and I are learning to pray that God would rule our hearts and not let circumstances dictate how we respond.    Awareness o four need and dependence on Him during times of chaos puts Him at the center and creates calm in the middle of the storm.  But like Peter the moment we take our eyes off Him we see the wind and waves and start to sink.

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